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7/2/25 - being flawed
Over the past few months, I have been realizing how much of a flawed man I am. I haven't focused on God nearly enough for a while, I'm constantly selfish, I'm very lazy, among other things I will not get into. It's hard to believe that I can be forgiven by God when I keep neglecting to give Him my attention and keep failing to do better. I hate that I wasted so many years not giving God my all, I really miss feeling close to Him and feeling the spirit move in worship and prayer. Sometimes I feel like I'm too far gone. My wife and I have recently started reading the bible and praying together every night again, something we had to stop when my scrupulosity was getting bad last year. It was so refreshing to read the book of John and talk to my Lord. I want to be consistant in devotion, He died for me, He deserves my focus.
To leave this on a happier note, I have recently learned about the futility of my works, my feelings included. I would instinctively think that if I feel bad enough, I'll be worthy of forgiveness, which is just another from of works righteousness. No amount of feeling or doing will make me worthy of Christ's mercy, the very nature of it is unmerited and unconditional, me trying to feel bad enough or do enough is trying to put a condition on forgiveness. Isaiah 55:1 says, “Come, everyone who is thirsty, come to the water; and you without silver, come, buy, and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without silver and without cost!" grace is the wine without silver or cost! to try to offer your works or feelings in exchange is an insult to His grace! From now on, I will devote myself more to God and spend more time in scripture and prayer. Not to try to curry favor with Him, but because He died for me and I love Him.
Related song: I Want To Love Him More
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